Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Choo don't know my struggles!
What are your struggles? What road blocks pop up in your day to day life that makes you want to run to the frig? Boredom? Work stress? Family issues?
My latest habit that I've been trying to break is my late night snack. It's not just a snack either; at times it ends up being an entire other meal. A little sandwich, followed by some chips and maybe a glass of milk. I try to rationalize this with myself by saying, "Well I'm using high fiber bread, non fat cheese, low fat ham, baked chips and skim milk!" Well they're still calories and they're still unneccessary, especially if I'm not that hungry. I'm learning to tell myself "No". I've spent a lifetime telling myself "Yes" so it's not like I'm really missing out. I can say no to the cheese and turkey stuffed croissent at Vivace. I don't need it. Do I want it? Oh hells to the yes.
I'm also learning what triggers my need for food. The other day I got pulled over and got my very first speeding ticket. I was so upset! I'd never had a speeding ticket before, it was was a stressful event for me. Instead of going home and preparing myself a nice light meal from all the groceries I'd spent tons of money on the day before, I went all out. I went to Boom Noodle and got beef yakisoba. Then I went to Cupcake Royale and got not one but TWO cupcakes. TWO! I went home and fed my stress and overindulged. Then I had chips and guac with Michelle. How can one person consume that much food in one sitting? I amaze myself at times. So now, when something is bothering me, upsetting me or stressing me out, I wait for it: that desire to run to the frig or the vending machine. Then I ask myself: Are you feeding your body or are you feeding your pain?
I haven't bought a scale just yet, probably this weekend when I'm at the pharmecy picking up my pain medications after getting my wisdom teeth out. Yay for that. As soon as I get my scale I will begin my weekly weigh-in's.
So tell me, what are your struggles?