Monday, June 14, 2010

The Unemployment Journal: Day 1

I woke up at 6:30 this morning without the alarm clock. For a fleeting moment, I thought to myself "Plenty of time, the vanpool won't be here for over another hour". Then I realized, the vanpool isn't coming. There isn't a job to go to. I'm...unemployed.

I have never been unemployed. I've never allowed myself to be in a position to be unemployed. I've never been fired, laid off or quit a job without having another job to go to. I have a feeling all these years of being cockily employed has caught up to me. I'm trying not to panic.

I made a decision that I will still get up everyday like I'm going to work. I will get up, shower, put on my regular work clothes, take care of the dog and instead of commuting to Redmond I commute to my desk where I will spend the day applying to jobs. Today that is just what I did.

I also have taken the first step to going back to school. I've enrolled with Argosy University, which is a mostly online University for people who work and can't go to day classes. An enrollment counselor spent 2 hours on the phone with me helping me enroll and get all my ducks in order.

About my old job, I'm not exactly torn up about losing it. It was a terrible job, I had a terrible boss with a terrible team lead and it was going nowhere. Today after enrolling in school and taking my future back into my hands, I realized that if I weren't let go from my job on Friday I would be there and be miserable and not taking any steps closer to completing my education. I'd be unhappy. I wouldn't be making plans. I'd be complacent, just like I had been for the last however many years of my life. I wouldn't want to give him the pleasure, but I am kind of glad things turned out this way.

And to all those haters, I'll meet you again on your long journey to the middle.

1 comment:

  1. Ohhh Almost Famous... Good reference.

    I know exactly how you feel. I lost my job in December, and it was stressful and terrifying but also a blessing. I love love love my new job and am thankful that they are so flexible and friendly. You will find something that's good for you, and not just something that's good for your wallet. <3